Soooo..... Long time no write, eh?

i mean really long time. Years. My last post was a year before college and here i am, year two!!

Oh gosh. College.

Ugh.

The main thing getting me to write again right now happens to be a very college sort of thing.

My roommate.

Now this isn't one of those weird roommate feud stories. The opposite maybe. I freaking love her. We are pretty much the same person really. I mean there are difference but nothing that clashes. I just wish i could speak up for my self sometimes.

See this week has been more on the crappy side and all week we were planning on having a Doctor Who marathon. So the week is finally over and today is supposed to be the day!! yay!! The day starts perfectly late around noon. And it starts with a surprising invitation. My roommate invites me to go out with her and a friend of hers to carve pumpkins! yay!

I think this would be a good point to tell you that my roommate doesn't often invite me to go out and do things with her friends. I'm more the "stay in friend" or the "you have a car so lets go grocery shopping together friend." which makes sense considering we are just roommates and she needs time away from me to be with other friends.

But thats why this invitation was such a surprise! So i accept and have a really fun time carving pumpkins thinking there is still plenty of time for Doctor Who.

But then my roommate goes out with the friends we just carved pumpkins with after dropping me back off at our room. This is also understandable because one of the friends is from out of town so she wants some time with her! but i still felt a bit like the little sibling they tolerated and then finally got some "big kid time."

For the next part of the story know that we already had plans to do this. And by this i mean go to the store to get groceries. So after my roommate gets back from being out with these other friends we go out on an adventure to walmart. We decide on walmart because we have been discussing the idea of getting fish for our dorm. So this is two for one because walmart has groceries AND fish! :D

So after this lovely adventure we find ourselves at about 7:30. At this point we have just dropped off our groceries and need to bring my car back to the garage which is a fair distance away from the dorm. BUT there is an ice cream store close by that we have a coupon for!! so we decide to get ice cream and then Doctor Who it up!! :D

But whilst enjoying said ice cream my roommate gets a text from a friend asking her if she wants to go get food. Now this should be no big deal because its 8:30! She could go and come back by 9:30ish? Thats still a good few hours before one of us passes out. So i tell her to go and we can Doctor Who after!

So back in the dorm all alone again i check up on tumblr! then MasterChef. Then Grey's Anatomy. Then tumblr again. Then Shinee and Big Bang. And its 12:30. I know from past experience that if we are lucky we will get through one episode before some conks out.

Now all this time while she is gone i start to get antsy. Maybe something came up? Maybe her her friend was having a hard time with something and just needed a friend. Or maybe someone was hurt or they got mugged??? (You never know!)

But alas, that is not the case.

After eating, my roommate and her friend decide to go back to Friend's dorm and watch a movie.

A movie of which my roommate got really sleepy and decided to just come back to our room and just go straight to bed.

I just wish i could have texted her to come back or see if everything was alright. Or told her when she came back that i thought we were going to watch Doctor Who.

Sigh.

Sometimes i just feel like a puppy that wants all of her attention or something. Because if i am just the puppy (stay with me here) she is the master who has a job and friends she needs to pay attention too. I mean she did give me attention today so i should be happy, right?

Sigh.

Maybe its just because its Doctor Who. I mean its a little bit ridiculous how much i love that show. I am so excited to get someone else to watch! Especially here at college! i was excited to have someone down here to watch with! But we haven't watched in WEEKS. and i really, really needed that after this week.

Or maybe i am just my roommates weird fangirl who just needs to calm down and be happy with what i get.

Yeah......

regardless here we are.

I just felt really homesick this week. Nothing was going right and i needed someone there for me. Its not my roommates fault though. i didn't tell her i just needed someone there.

Thats my problem though.

I just cant speak up for myself.

When i am upset i just keep to myself because i don't want to make others upset. I didn't want my roommate to feel bad because i spent the night alone when i really needed someone.

I miss Tessa. (Holla Girl!) I miss my mom. I miss my sisters. I miss my dad. I miss my dog. I miss Gilbert.

Gosh dangit why do i miss Gilbert??? I just wanted to get the heck out of there for years!!

I guess tonight i will pray for some comfort and hope for a better week. i can be strong on my own. I do it all the time and its time to do it some more.

Good night all.

Stay positive.

Lots of Love,
Rin

P.S.
Dearest Roommate, if you ever read this, i love you! and i'm not mad. i just needed to rant.

A Pivotal Year

Being a senior, there is a lot to think about. So many things come up in your life that you knew youd be faced with one day. The terrible thing is, they all seemed to come up at the same time. 

College: Now I am super excited for college and practically nothing can stop me from going but there is so much more associated with it now that i have never thought about. 

        Family: Bye bye family, the people i see everyday of my life, literally. I mean, what the heck am i going to do with out Elise? Who am i supposed to be crazy around or obsess about Koreans with? And my mom? What will i do when no when tells me to turn off Psych and get going or do my laundry? Am i gonna have to pull a Tessa and go buy new clothes? oh wait. I'll be a poor college student so thats not even an option. Or my dad? Whos supposed to hold me close and make me feel safe? 

       Friends: I finally feel like i have solid friends and a good social life but now im gonna be uprooted and thrown down into Tuscon where i know no one.  Ugh. It took me this long to finally get these friends. What am i gonna do? 

       Money: So im that dummy senior that doesnt have a job and seems to always be running low on cash. Even if i get school paid for, by some miraculous miracle, how am i going to pay for things ive never thought about like soap, clothes, or food!? 

     Work: I am very excited for college classes but can i handle them? According to my current work ethic, i doubt it.

Boys: Why now? Why now, before i go away to college and i am so busy with other stuff, do they deside to actually like me? I was finally accepting that line that they used to always tell me (yeah. directed to me) in young womens, "its totally normal if you dont date until college." Maybe i just need a break from boys. or maybe i really will just go away to college, find some hottie, and be whisked off of my feet and be 'fairytale happy'. Heh. i wish. 

High School: Its gross, alright? I have had enough of it. I've had enough of 8 hours of classes, 5 hours of homework, inappropriate humor from immature classmates, and lets not even mention the cafeteria. But im still stuck there. for 5 days a week. every week. ugh. Im 18. i think ive served my time here in high school.

Wow. Im such a downer. 

Well on a happier note. I just came home from the Chandler East Stakes Christmas Musical Program. Josh was in the choir and it was really great(:  So glad i looked good today. 

Lots Of Love,

Rin

P.S. Happy early Christmas Tessa. I blogged. Just for you(:
P.S.S. This is a song that keeps me going. And not just because ts sang by the incredibly handsom Andy Grammer(:

Blog, Blog, Why do I Blog?

Seriously, i have a fairly boring life.
I figured out the cute, funny kid i sit next to in seminary is 14. I turn 18 in exactly 1 month. Yeah, no hope there.
Not that exciting.
I am reading a chapter book with pictures in it. Pathetic. (haha. Jut kidding. Its a very good book regardless of how childish i feel reading it)
Woop-ti-dee
Tessa is having a Harry Potter half day tomorrow.
I have a physics test.
Oh, and i complain about being so tured but what do i do?
Come home from school, watch hours of a show, dilly dally through my homework then blog about my nothing life.
Then complain about complaining. Heh.
I just wish something great would happen.  (dont want to jinx myself)
On a brighter note, our AC is fixed! The summer is almost over and just today does our air conditioner get fixed. But it feels heavenly.


      Lots Of Love,
             Rin

A Happy Rant

Ive been spending alot of my time lately thinking about the story i am going to write. I love it so much! it makes me so happy! I mean, i know this story is just my own imagination but it still fills me with sucj joy and happiness!
I think to myself, "how could two people love each other so much!?"
Then i remember that they are not real. But even this though doesnt bring me down!
Striving for such a goal as writing a novel brings me hope.
Oh Ambition! How i have missed you!
Even school is great. Never before have i loved an English class so much. And i am not an english person! I love science! (still do. No worries there) And Ashley, a dear friend, has been bringing me joy. I cannot wait for my temple trip with her and Tessa.
I cannot, also, wait to visit Tessa's mom! She is the sweetest lady and now she is getting baptized and i am so excited! someone else out there will soon feel the joy i have all the time.
Plus i love the City so i am excited to return there(:
Family is great too. They bring me happiness as well. Catch Phrase with the fam? Score!
And one more thing. This show, Lie to Me, (better then it sounds!) has been making me happy too. This very cute episode i just watched inspired me to come write this post.
Here is a song that is from the show and will also be incorporated into my book. I love it! so cute!

            Lots Of Love,
                   Rin

A Marley Moment

So today, was a weird day. Things happened to me today that never happen to anyone (with the exception of book and movie characters).
Anyways, to the point. Today was a fairly good day. School=bearable+some good moments. After school= ...
So when i got home from school, Mom said she would fill mar car with gas since i was going to pick Elise up from school. This, was a process. No gas pump would work. So we switched gas stations. Ended up driving away with out my gas cap.
"But Erin, how is this a 'Marley Moment'?"
Alright. Alright. So i brought Samuel, my overly excited dog, a yellow lab, might i add, with me to pick Elise up. He is a very good companion to ride in the car with shockingly. So i sit and read my book,waiting for Elise to come out. At this point, i am in a very good mood despite my poor gas station experience. We chat and enjoy the ride until Sam decides to throw a fit. So i rerolled the window down and continue to chat. 
But suddenly, Sam's paws are over the edge of the window! I flip out and Elise shoves him back in the car. Phew! Day saved, right?
Yeah, guess again.
Moments later, Elise starts screaming, "Pooping! Pooping! Sam is pooping!"
Pooping.
Samuel pooped in the backseat of my car.
It smelled.
Bad.
So i rolled down all of the windows, all of the way. And just as we roll up to stoplight and stop, tears rolling from our eyes from the stench, we see Samuel hop out of the car's window.
Backstory time!
So i did not eat dinner last night and all i had eaten this day by this point is a granola bar and some gold fishies. And 44oz of Coke.
So i get a little shaky at this point. But the light turns green and i turn the corner and park off to the side of the road, with my flashers on. Elise bolts out of the car and heads for Sam, who is merrily finishing his business.
I, however, do not know this. I start to cry, believing my poor dog may have run into traffic. So i call my mom. (what else are you supposed to do when you are shaking from fear and lack of food?)
After a minute of my mom consoling me and convincing me to calm down and tell her what happened, Elise comes back to the car and puts Sam in the backseat again (windows up).
So i tell my mom what has happened and the most unexpected thing happened.
I laughed.
And laughed and laughed.
She could barely understand at this point so i repeat myself.
"He POOPED Mom! He POOPED in Tessa's hat! In her hat!"
After another ten minutes in the parking lot of me trying to regain control, we drive home.
And while cleaning up the poop was a process (i mean, this could be a story all in its own), i will refrain from telling that story.
So i bought some Free breeze and ate some food and i decided it was a pretty good day. I mean, it was crazy and freaky, but this is a good story, right?
All i had to do was change my perspective and it was a great day(:

So wish me luck that tomorrow my car will no longer smell of canine feces!


     Lots Of Love,
            Rin

An Uplifting Sunday

     Well first, I'd like to get my rant out of the way for today. I really hate when people dont capitalize things in their titles. I know, I know. It shouldnt be that big of a deal. It just bothers me.
     Anyway, today, has been an uplifting day. I have really been lacking the... lack of a better phrase, spiritual drive that Ive needed lately. But i decided to fast today to hopefully boost this back up and BAM! It worked. I have received the answers that i have been seeking, got a lot of personal progress done, and got set apart in my first offical church calling ever. woah.
     I am now the Ray 3rd ward's newest activity days leader. While I did have a very long, very well thought out rant for this one, I have decided to just accept the calling and be happy. (thanks to this beautiful Sunday.) 
     Only the Lord knows whats best for us.
    

     I know this is just the first post ans that its not super exciting, but I promise I am going to try my very best to post more and be more entertaining.


                     Lots of Love,
                            Rin